May 19, 2007 | Raspberry | Rolleicord

Just a goofy shot ...

Something occurred to me today while talking with a friend, on my way home from a kiddies birthday party. My friend, also a mother of an adopted Chinese daughter, is pregnant, and a few weeks ahead of me. What occurred to me is that after years of being infertile, and extremely sensitive to all the pregnancies around me, I am hesitant to show off mine and "glow" about it, in the fear of offending someone. We were joking about how much we hated baby showers when going through IVF and all the other fertility treatments, and especially hated to be around pregnant women. It is so ingrained in me, that I am incredibly sensitive to being "one of those fertile women". I'm a pregnant woman, with an infertile stigma. Sounds weird, I know. Years of habit, I guess.

I'm blowing a raspberry at myself for that. I'm pregnant, and I'm going to enjoy it, dammit.

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